Im Quite Terrible...

And I spend so much time bitching about the other people around me. When Im not exactly a saint either. I wish I never let it get this far but it did. The only thing that I can do at this point in time is to fix it. Its kind of like I have a huge cut on my arm. I need to clean up the blood and dress the wound. In this situation there are multiple wounds and sores. Pretty much I think its easy to say that my whole life is just one gigantic bruise after another. The sad thing is, Ive been sitting here sulking and finding other factors to blame instead of blaming the one person whos caused it all. Me. Ive become my worst nightmare and I just sat there and let it happen. I stabbed so many people in the back and Ive made myself look like the victim when I have been the victimizer. To everyone Ive ever hurt. To the good friends Ive betrayed for my own selfish liasons I am sorry. Thats all I can really offer after the damage has been done.